♥ AIYA ! :D

Uhhh, did i put the wrong picture? :D

Okay, this is nice (: love it :D

HEY YO ! I am back. ): I am no longer the girl who is being emotional and thinks negatively.

The optimistic me is finally back. (: Anyways, thanks (:

Today, Monday.

Well, actually at first i didnt plan to go school. Because, school is having a-merdeka celebration. And, as usual, it'll be boring. At least, that was what i thought. But, it actually turned out not that bad. Only because of the drama. It was awesome and hilarious. I can't stop laughing.

Well, back to the topic. I went to school because of.....

We, the 7 of us are going to Ying's house. :P To eat, play, chat, have fun or whatever.

Right after school, we walked to her house. Me, Toong and Ping walked together. We chatted a lot. (: Then, after putting down our bags and everything, we gonna go out to buy some food. But, right before that, I needed to call my parents. I kept on calling. Nobody answered. I was like LOL! I'd called my sis, dad, mum for N times. Finally dad picked up the phone.

Then, we went out to buy.

After buying, we walked back. While walking back, i bought an ice-cream. :P Then, we started to eat. We ate while watching the tv. :P Such an enjoying moment. (: Then, me, ping and ying cleaned up the mess we'd made. (: Me & Ping helped Ying to carried the rubbish and plates to the kitchen. Then, we waited for her, chatted and accompanied her while she was washing the plates. (:

Then, we went out to chat. Queen & pei are chatting those K-POP thingy. So 5 of us chatted our own things. (: Uhm, SECRET ! :P Haha, then, around 3, Queen Nise & Pei went back as they will be having their tuition on 6pm. I knew it was kinda early to back, though.

Then, we continued our conversation. XD 4 of us chatted lots of things. We laughed, We had fun. (: Of course, what we'd said were SECRET. :P hahaha. Then, at 5pm, i called mummy and asked her to come and fetch us at 5.15om. Then, we continued our things. :P Then, mummy came. So we went back.

I love spending time with them. (: I am glad to have them as my friends. (:

♥♥♥♥ you guys.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ you guys a lot. (:

Next post : My weekend + National day.

Adios. ♥

Love,

Carmen. ♥

♥ The Girl

I am no longer the girl who thinks that every thing is not a big deal.

I used to say " Aiya, Never mind lar. " But now, i can't convince myself with that anymore.

So, what does that actually mean?

She is the girl who doesn't like to share her secrets.

She is the girl who loves to watch sports especially football.

She is the girl who will laugh out loud whenever i want to, i feel like.

She is the girl who doesn't like to show my sadness in front of people.

She is the girl who loves to eat a lot.

She is the girl who loves to read.

She is the girl who loves to watch movies.

She is the girl who loves to take picture of things especially sky. It can give her a feeling.

She is the girl who loves to go shopping.

She is the girl who is very childish.

She is the girl who loves cartoons.

She is the girl who thinks that life is great.

She is the girl who always wants to travel around the world.

She is the girl who loves to spend time with her family.

She is the girl who can think of a lot of weird things.

She is the girl who laugh easily.

She is the girl who loves dolls.

She is the girl who is very scared of animals except for her dog.

She is the girl who doesn't know how to express herself.

She is the girl who has weird thinkings.

She is the girl who hurt people easily when she doesn't want to hurt them.

She is the girl you will never know nor understand.

" You can barely breathe.....

... When you're with them. "

WELLLLL.

I WILL BE HAVING A WONDERFUL-PLANNED-AWESOME WEEKEND WITH MY FAMILY.

HOPEFULLY EVERYTHING WILL GO WELL.

It's time for me to put everything down.

Forget every guilt and sad moment.

Anyhow, i am sorry. :/

I am very satisfied with my life, right now.

Though, there are plenty of things always made me down. :/

But, i will try to forget everything by now. :D

I dont understand what you're thinking.

You're no longer the person i used to know.

Oh, wait ! You never were !

Talking about other people?

Why dont you look at the mirror first?

You're selfish.

You did everything which will benefit you.

♥ Balik Balik (:

Take a deep deep breathe. Enjoy the serenity and tranquility of the surrounding. Enjoy what you've now. And, ENJOY THE FOOD TO THE FULLEST. (:

Hey yo ! :D

Saya dah balik lar. :D

Finally, I am back to the heaven after being in hell for 1 week. 1 whole week burning the midnight oil. What to do? Studied at the eleventh hour. :/

I've always been telling myself to study, study, study. I kept on telling myself to do revision few weeks before the exam. But, i keep asking myself " why i can't study before the exam and why i always study at the last minute. " How could this happen to me? I'cve been trying out many ways to overcome my so-called weakness. Sometimes, i just wonder why and how other people could do it but i cant. Why i can't?

Another thing is. My carelessness.

Darn it. I really hate it. ): I am so careless especially i am doing my test. I keep on rubbing off the right answers and change to some wrong answers. ): I am so stupid. Especially my geography. You know? I'd rubbed off all the correct answers. Hence, i got very low marks in it. I haven't mark it yet, though. I have no faith in it. ):

Thirdly, is that i have no confidence. I dont believe in myself. I dont trust my first instinct.

I should've believe in myself. The first thing that came across myself when i saw those question is the answer. But, why can't I just believe in myself? Have faith in myself? What should i do?

Well, i know i should not have all this kind of negative thinkings. I should have think POSITIVELY. As the saying goes : The grass on the other side is always greener.

Life is full of challenges and temptations. The only thing we can do is " no matter what happen to you, dont be afraid to make a mistake. After we made a mistake, we can learn something. We will grow up. (: " " Dont ever give up! Fell down? Stand up then ! " If it's necessary, let your tears out. It really does help.

Throughout this week, i've learnt a lot of things. It's like i've been through hell. And yes, i made a lot of mistakes. And yes, I am afraid to make mistakes. But, i am trying to accept the fact that i'd made a lot. In fact, i should stop lying to myself. :/

It made me grow stronger. I strongly believe in one of my favourite quote. (: It's really help me a lot just by saying those words, those words mean a lot to me. Life is meant to be challenging. (: Life is meant to be happy. Life is meant to be excited. Life is something you should expect. Life is something full of expectations. Life is something full of hopes. (:

Just smile, and everything will do.

Smile (:

Dont worry, i am alright now. (:

I've expressed everything that i'd wanted to say for so long. (:

Now, it's time for a NEW life. A new START.

Tomorrow is always a new day. (:

“Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.”

♥ I love this song

I love this song very much. Sometimes, i just couldn't stop listening to this song.

And, this version is super awesome. :D

This song never failed to cheer me up whenever i feel sad or down. (:

The best song ever. ( for me. ) :P

This version is the best among all i've ever heard of. It's almost made me cry. :X

This song was so "heaven-ish" and their voice are angelic. :D

Hearts them :D

Ponteng :D

Hey yo. I skipped school today. Not feeling well. Plus, i think going to school is a waste of time :D

hahaha. I would rather study at home. I didnt study much in this morning, though. :D

Anyways, just to come here to say something.

Will be M.I.A until 26 Aug.

:D

♥ Emo.

Grrrrrrrr.

Just ignore me. Just leave me alone.

I need to express something in my heart. But, words just cant seems to express how i feel.

Ignore me for this and the previous post. I dont know what the heck is wrong with me.

I dont know. I seriously dont know what happen to me.

I am truly sorry if i said something that is hurtful. Sorry. I wasn't in a good mood this few days.

Perhaps, i am over-tension? yeas. i guess so. First time experience thing like this. People say that TENSION can motivate you to study. But, i have lots of tension. Why can't i concentrate when i am doing my revision? I dont understand why. But why, whenever i have no tension, i can concentrate in my study? why? why? why? i dont get it.

♥ Sad.

I've wasted my whole day. Wen to 3 places today. OU, KLCC and Sungei Wang. (:

Anyways, i am worried that i cant finish my study. :X Darn, the exam was so near. :X

I am not prepared. I am so not prepared. Anyways, Exam, i am not afraid of you anymore. I am used to it. (: So, BRING IT ON. :D

Might be getting something new. :D

♥ BUSY!

Sorry for not blogging for like uhmmm *counting* 4 days? LOL. Whatever. -__-

Was busy doing all the decoration for the i-dont-know-what. :D So far, me, munyie, my mami, and ziexin had done the jadual waktu, jadual tugas. Still have things to do. LOL. I am so busy. Need to study also. -_- Anyways, i am doing the ajk list now.

Sorry for the super poor quality of the picture. Was using paint. Sigh. And, it's extremely small, i know. Sorry. :D Oh yeas, if you wanna see the picture of our hard work. Pei gt took some pictures of it. Kindly go and view :D

Thanks Cheong Chun for the super-heavy-breakfast. I will definitely pay you the money even IF you DONT wanna accept it. (:

SPBT's duty yesterday was fun. We were so noisy. :D 7 of us are sitting outside, on the floor. Chit-chatting while doing works. Then, went down to continue my work. Do the Timetable. :D Sorry yea, i was busying up there and left the works to you guy. Plus, i went back home earlier. Sorry. :X

Today, went for the extra class held by Cik Kamala. Woah, was very fun too. Miss her very muccchie. At least her way of teaching is much more better than, uhh, you know RIGHT? :DD

Anyways, gotta continue my works. :D

Will blog more when i am free (:

Adios.

Love,

Carmen.

♥ STUDY!

Trying to get motivated so that i CAN study.

Anyway, i am trying real hard ti find out WHAT IS MY WEAKNESSES. And, it's getting clearer that I AM NOT GOOD IN TIME MANAGEMENT. I dont know how to spend my time wisely. So, i will do a timetable. :P " TO-DO-LIST " since PMR is just just around the corner. So near. I am almost dead.

I have no confidence to score really well in the Trial which will start next week.

Sister told me that stressed is DESSERTS spelled backwards. But, i dont think so. She said that i should really get studied now so that i will not regret in the future.

She actually motivated me in a way. So thank you, jie :P

Ways to reduce stress :

• Get enough sleep.
• use your time wisely ( i am stressed because of this !)
• Avoid negative thoughts
• Look at probs a challenges
• Look at Challenges differently
• Have goal for yourself.
• LAUGH MORE.
• Dont force yourself.
• Take a nap if you want to ( recharge your "battery")
• Exercise
• Watch Tv
• Stop saying negative things to yourself
• Beleive in yourself ( YOU CAN DO IT )
• talk to your friends.
• SMILE ! (:

♥ BALIK ! :D

Well...

M.I.A stands for MISSING IN ACTION ! :D

* not mati in airport. Don't curse me leh. So bad.

Btw, NGU PEI SHEE ! Not my Bonny lar. Dont curse her leh ! :D

I MISS YOU GUYS ! :DDDD

♥ M.I.A

NOTE ! ***

WILL BE M.I.A FOR 2 DAYS. :D

WILL BE BACK ON SATURDAY. GONNA BLOG ABOUT HARI KOKO BY THAT TIME.

IT'S TIME TO GO. BYEEE.

PS : I AM SO STRESS -_-

♥ Goshh.

Oh my goshhh. I am updating my blog everyday now? I just wanna jot down everything that happened to me. So that i could read them again next time. (:

I really wanna travel around the world. the whole world. (: It'd always been my dream since i was young. I love to travel and take pictures. I will take a lot of pictures on a certain things. Just one thing, i can take 10++ pictures. I am weird, i know. :X

Look at all these places. Pictures, i mean. :P Like those that will only exist in FAIRYTALES. ♥

i really wish to see a place like this. A path in a forest. Can you imagine?

I really love all this natural places. I love to go to those big cities too. Especially The USA and The Europe countries. New zealand, Australia, Even the Asia countries : Korea, Japan, Taiwan. :D Darn, i am getting excited. I am so gonna visit all these places. I am gonna start saving money from now on. Pray hard. (:

Anyways, that's all for this post. Will post more when i am free (:

& I dont know why my PS stop functioning. I want to edit quite a number of pictures actually. But, nevermind. I'll do it next time. Stay tunned.

Adios. ♥

Love,

Carmen.♥

♥ When....

When A Feeling we known as 'emotional' strikes..... This is what will happen to me.

A lot of things had happened recently.

I need some fresh air, space and time to accept everything that had changed around me. Sometimes, they said that " changes are good ". But, i dont think so, do i? Well, maybe sometimes it's better to change something. But, it's just SOMETIMES. Not all the time.


I am getting fed up with my life. Life just full of miseries, isn't it? One thing happened will follow by another one. Sad and bad things could never stop happening.


I really dont know what should i do now. Things going on here is out of control, out of my expectations. It's like things that i wish to happen will ended up being a mess or out of my control. Things that i 've always expected to see will not be as what i want in the end. I am just sick of it. Why can't things just happened like what we want them to be like? Why? I wonder why. I've been suffering from insomnia. I've plenty of sleepless nights. Wondering why things could happen in this or that way. I am neither a robot nor a God. I need to know what's going on . I wonder. I wonder. I wonder. How could these things happen? How possibly could these things actually happen around us? How? Why? Always being an optimistic person is not a good thing. Because, when you're pessimistic for times, you really dont know what should or what's the right thing to do.

I am lost. I am confused. I am mesmerized.

No worries. I am just trying to express a sudden feeling in my heart.

I will be fine, i always will. As far as i concerned, I'd never been beaten down by anything.

I will not, anyways.

Love,

Carmen :D

♥ :D

Darn...

I am sooooooo extremely very regretted now.

I SHOULD HAVE REGISTERED FOR THE KEM KEPIMPINAN. THE ACTIVITIES ARE AWESOME, FUN AND CHALLENGING.

*cry* *cry*

Nevermind, i will MUST go next year :D Hopefully can go with my darlings :D ♥

And, Kelok lost my super cute pendrive. :X Sigh.